you only burn my bridges.

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Sat, 26 Nov 2005 19:42:15 GMT

so i'm basicly updating because ryan told me to.

agentdoubleoryan: i added your el jay<3
GLITTER xBOMBBB: sweettt :-)
agentdoubleoryan: that means you have to update :-)
GLITTER xBOMBBB: okay i willll. heh
agentdoubleoryan: yeahhh
agentdoubleoryan: tell the world about the sweet times at the football game.
GLITTER xBOMBBB: kay will do

we had fun at the football game on thanksgiving. it was freezing though. vans slip ons and cold weather don't mix good. it equals numb feet.

talking about numb feet, my feet are freezing right now. GAH cold weather.

i actually have an xanga now. so i may be departing LJ soon. idkkkkk.
http://www.xanga.com/LOLZ_SLAUGHTER

my mom went to go buy me strawberry yogurt cheerios.
yess it sounds nasty, but idc it's mad good.

i miss my boyfriend.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 15:14:09 GMT

i really don't feel like being in school today, but whatever.

i didn't spike my hair today or put any hairspray in it. i was too tired to do anything.
i've gotten many comments on it. mhmm i had like ten minutes of sleep last night.
i'm getting back into my "no sleep" routine and it sucks.

we are watching that show again in this class. i like that showww. :) haha

hanging out with nick yesterday was alot of fun. i love him alotalotalot.
he now knows how tickleish i am. psh greattt.

in art class everyone was fascinated with my ears.
"OMG THATS A HOLE IN YOUR EAR?!" "uhmmm.. yeahh.."
people these days. soo annoying.

i'm happy that this is our last day before vacation and that we have advisory today.

ada said she saw adam this morning crossing the steet, but i didn't see him this morning, nor is he in class. hmm maybe adam is being a bad kid and skipping school? ugh. why didn't he tell me!!
gkjrdnk i would've went with him.

i can't think of anything i want for xmas, from like my friends. i know that i want a computer and a new digital camera, but thats expensive stuff, like something my mom and my sister would buy me.

i'm probably eating lunch with ada today, because yeah, adam isn't here. lol
oh well, ada is cool. :)

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 16:04:31 GMT

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today is a very good day.
i am really hyper and excited and happy and i love it.
right after school nick is going to be at chs to get me
and we are going to my house and hanging out for awhile. :)

we're watching this movie on like stalkers and stuff.
it's actually quite interesting. i like it. we're finishing it tomorrow. :)

i hope the rest of the school day goes by fasttt.

well, we only have about like five minutes left of class. so yeah. thats all.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:06:08 GMT

so it's friday. i don't have any plans untill like around 8:00 when
i'm going to that show @ cabot street. ehh idk.

i had three hours of homework last night. & i didn't even finish. it sucked alottt. today i have been doing my homework in between periods. it works. i don't need zeros. i need better grades.

i miss nick alot :( i'll see him this weekend though, hopefully. if he doesn't have to work sunday. & if he does then he is taking monday off, possibly. & comming to chs to get me :) and then we are hanging out. i may see him either tuesday or wednesday also. idkkkk. i just love being with him.

hmm. i don't think i am going to get home untill like 12:00 tonight. so i may just sleep over cjs house. but idk i don't really think cj wants us to because i said "hey maybe we should have a sleepvoer at your house tomorrow night after the show" and shes like "idkkk." so whatever. i guess molly is going to the show. lol it's her first show. she's gonna have fun. she doesnt even like that kind of music, but she'll have fun.

i have decided that i am going to try to go to the gym twice a week. or at least once a week. i need to get in shape. idk, i guess i just need goals. plus i'd like to stay healthy.

it seems to me that everyone around me these days hates everything & everyone.
what i'd like to know is why? why now and not before. you'd have to be quite
pissed off to hate everything and everyone.

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Thu, 17 Nov 2005 16:08:22 GMT

tuesday was amazing. i finally got to see nick. i had fun. i love that boy alotttt.
i was like a half an hour late getting to sams house so my mom could bring me home & my mom didn't really seem to care. hmm. idk. maybe she was in a good mood. or maybe she was just happy to get rid of me.

yesterday sucked. i stayed home sick. i hate being sick. i hate the fact that no matter how hard i try i can not get a decent amount of sleep. and if i do get some sleep i still feel tired. i needed the day off, plus i felt like shit. i had a fever & a headache. and i was dizzy. ect. whatever. my mom knew i was sick. she comes home from work and immediately bitches at me. she tells me that i'm stupid for failing latin. (yeah, i failed latin) and that my idiot friends and my music add to me lacking on doing homework or not studying. i got yelled at & i cryed for about 3 hours straight. and then i talked to tina and she made everything better. what it all comes down to now, is that if i don't study and do my homework and get my grades up AND respect my parents, i will not be allowed to do anything. my solution to this? do my work and study before my tests. do not speak to my parents unless it is nessecary. i did not talk to nick at all yesterday. it sucked & now i miss him alott.

i still do not feel that good today, but i'll live. i'm sick of complaining.

anyways. show tomorrow night @cabot? yeah, i'm going.

it's tuesday :)

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 15:27:54 GMT

it's tuesday ! finally i get to see nick. i havn't seen him in almost a week. i think i may be going over his house today :) i lovelovelovelove him <33 i'm so excited to see him . haha

well, i don't feel that good today. i havn't been for the past week. idk. maybe it's because i can't get alot of sleep, even if i'm really tired. i've been waking up like every other hour. yuckk. i dont like it.

kfdjngkfdj mariah was being a bitch to my mom today, so i hope my mom will drive us to nick's house. if not then i'm going to kill mariah. lol i need to see nick. if i don't i am going to go insane. not that i already havn't...

hmm. thats all for now i guess.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 16:07:28 GMT

today is going by quite fast.
i didnt really do anything in computer class today, because i had to do a final draft & i saved my rough draft on the computer so i just fixed a couple things and then printed it out.

tomorrow i will see nick. so i am excited because i havn't seen him in while & i'm going crazy not seeing him. gksdfhgkfdjgsdfhyfdgj

adam is comming over today. :)

my mom will not be home untill like 5:00.
she is at foxwoods with cj's mom playing bingo.

it's nice out today. it makes me want to go for a walk, or go to the park and go on the swings.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:44:12 GMT

how was my four day weekend?
well - it wasn't as great as i expected it to be.

i can't really remember anything i did this weekend, which means i didn't do anything that fun, obviously.

but! today keith came over. and he let me straighten & cut his hair !! :)
lol it looked good. but when i cut his sideburns it looked funny at first.

i managed to loose my ice cream cake. i still havn't found were i put it.

i'm not looking forward to going to school tomorrow.
but what i am looking forward to is seeing nick on tuesday. :)

i was in a shitty mood for most of the day because i miss nick ALOTALOTALOT.

i like to complain.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 22:58:24 GMT

last night = amazing.
tonight = not so amazing.

yesterday was my moms birthday. & she told us that she would bring us to sammys house
when she got back from wherever she was going, but she didnt get home untill late so
i had tina bring us. :) & i got to see nick. i had fun. we cuddled alot and we
listend to bright eyes, daphne loves derby, mae, postal service ect. everything is
perfect as long as i have his arms around me. mmmm being in love has to be the best
feeling in this world. <33

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 15:26:00 GMT

so yeah yesterday i got caught cheating on my latin test.
mmm. yeah the teacher hates me now. hmm theres another reason for me to be failing latin / hating latin class. eww.

uhmm .. might hang out with nick today, if i don't have to go to the mall. i have to buy my mom a present. her birthday is tomorrow.

uhm yeah i have to do work in computer class so thats about it for my update.

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 15:25:57 GMT

me and nick have been going out for a month, today. =)
and that makes me very happy. i'm pretty sure this has been the best month of my life.

three day week. 4 day weekend !! =) yay. happy.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 15:25:53 GMT

so this morning sucked.
mariah punched me,
i burnt my finger on the straightener,
i ran out of hairspray, my moms a bitch, ect.

i look horrible & my finger hurts like a bitch

on the brightside it's friday, i saw mike today. & i'm not tired.

mmmm.. plans?

going to the freshman's football game today. it's there last home game, so i thought i'd go.
& then i have to babysit kailyn. molly is going. so it should be fun.

saturday: i have no idea. you should deffinately make plans to hang out with me that day.
sunday: hopefully hanging out with my love,nick. because i miss him tons.

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 15:25:10 GMT

today is going by really fast & i love it.

i had dunkin donuts for breakfast for the past 2 days. soo good. :) lol
i saw mike hurley there yesterday & i was hoping i'd see him again today. but nopeee. :(

i got to see nick yesterday ! yay. i love him sooo much <333

i have to go to the gym today. i havn't been in so long & i need to stay in shape.

i have no plans for this weekend, besides sunday, which hopefully i am hanging out with nick because he's not working that day. mmm make plans with me?? kay. :)

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 15:21:11 GMT

i'm in a good mood today. :)
mostly because i get to see nick. yayyy.

hollywood undead makes me in a good mood.
too bad my computer these days is going mad slow!
so it's difficult for me to listen to them.

adam & tori = cute. :)

i have a sudden urge to go to a park.
it's fall & it makes me want to play outside.

advisory's today. ewww. major bore.

i'm sick & i don't like it.
i took medicine today, but it doesnt seem like it's working.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 15:26:01 GMT

this morning was a bit disfunctional. i woke up kind of late. my mom spilled coffee on my report that took me 2 hours to do last night, so i had to retype it this morning. i was talking to kyle in the process of trying to do my essay. he's hilarious. i love my family. i got coverup on my white hoodie & i freaked out.

today is going by rather fast & that makes me happy because i might be able to see nick after school =)
i'm going to ask my mom if she'll drive me and mariah to sammys house today. maybe she'll say yes. & if not i'll tell her she has to drive us tomorrow because those are nicks only days off. i hope she does. i miss that boy alottt.

my mom bought me a hoodie from hollister. it's white. i am so sick of wearing black. she also bought me a coat from AE that i wanted, and 2 shirts from weathervane. i like clothes way too much.

happy halloween =)

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 15:26:07 GMT

our party was amazingly fun. i love kyle & jaron. molly ended up sleeping over.

last night i went to the movies with james again. we went to see Saw 2. it was very very good.
if you havn't seen it yet, you should. =)

i am wearing pj's right now. & i'm mad comfy. we watched the nightmare before christmas for the first 3 periods. now i have computers and then i dont know where to go. lol i think i'm just going to go to my 5th period class? i might have to go to my first period class though, idk who knowssss.

i love nick so incredibly much. he's the best boyfriend ever & he makes the the happiest girl in this world. =) enough said.

i'm in a good mood today, only because i am not doing any work. lol

it's halloween & i don't have any plans. i think i may go trick or treating with kailyn. idk.

it's friday!! =)

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 15:09:05 GMT

it's friday !!

so yeah i'm going to six flags today.
molly is deffinatley going but i need one more person to go with us,
because an odd number will suck.

this weekend is going to be really fun.

adam is wearings shorts.
in my art class there is a chineese kid who was wearing the same ones.

yesterday was fun. went to the mall with people, hung out with cj's boytoy erik. & stuff.
me and adam are afraid of cj's dog. we ran away from it.

i didn't buy new plugs. i didn't have any money.
BUT! on the bright side i found a coat i like at american eagle. it's cute & molly is getting it too.
hence every other girl in this school will have it also. grrr. i'll kill them all.

=( i've been thinking about nick all day. i didn't talk to him much yesterday because i was mad busy. i miss him alottt. girhgikdfhndgfg

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 14:25:43 GMT

so yeah, today is thursday, which is a good thing because it's almost the end of the week.
i'm in computer class once again, which is where i do most of my updates, which you should know by now.

anywayssss. hanging out with nick yesteday was fun =)
we still havn't taken cute myspace pictures though. lol we always forget untill we are not with each other anymore. oh well. being with him makes me soo incredibly happy. i wish i could drop everything & be with him all the time. that'd be perfect. oh yes, marissa's in love.

plans for today:
going to the mall with cj & ryan.
buying new plugs hopefully.
& comming home and doing my projects.

josh isnt here once again. that boy either 1) needs to do a shitload of extra credit, or 2)at least go to school, or he'll fail all of his classes and end up staying back. [not cool] i hope he feels better?

thats all for now i guess.

ehh.

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 14:42:08 GMT

i still don't feel too good, i'm mad dizzy, but it's because i didnt eat anything yesterday. i went to school anyways because i don't like missing school & i'd rather be here than bored as hell at home. i'll be fine.

besides the fact that i have a fever.. the day is going by kind of fast. & i'm glad because all i want to do is go home & go be with nick. it's unbelivable how much i love that boy.

i have two projects due on monday & not to mention all of my makeup work from yesterday. boy do i hate school.

on a brighter note, this weekend is going to be crazy. i can't wait for it.

i still havnt decided what i am going to be yet. i think i'm going to be this evil fairy thing that mariah was a couple years ago. it's not as lame as it sounds.. lol.. i dont have any money to buy anything & kyle will kill me if i dont dress up, so if i'm not that then i probably am going to have to do some yardwork. fun? ehh not really.

i need money anyways. i want to buy new plugs & i'm going to the mall with ryan & cj tomorrow. i need 3/4 that arn't flared, because i can't fit the flared ones in my right ear, & it's already fucked up enough, so i'm not going to force it.

i'm running on about 15 minutes of sleep. i could not fall asleep at all last night. i was so tired too. i don't know why. it was weird....

i am excited to see people on saturday. i miss all of the ahmerst kids badly. havn't seen them in a while & partys with jaron and kyle are always fun, so i wouldn't expect anything less. mhmm

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 14:39:42 GMT

ehhh i feel like shit, & i miss nick alot.
i stayed home from school today.
i'm going to watch season 2 of the OC right now & fall asleep.

~~why is my family falling apart?~~

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 14:28:38 GMT

ehh. it's monday. yuck.

this weekend was okay i guess.
on friday i went to the movies with james & sammy & keenan. we saw that movie "stay". it was very confusing, but it was good. i like hanging out with james. he's awesome.
on sat. i was bored all day up untill like 6:00 when my parents went out for dinner, and then sammy came over & we rented Carrie &nightmare on elm street. and watched carrie. good movie.
& sunday. [yesterday] i went over sammys house with mariah & finally got to see nick. yayy i love that boy sooo much. i had fun. we cuddled & watched texas chainsaw massacre,tremmers and friday the 13th. we sat in this mad uncomfy chair that sam loves, but whatever. lol i love being with nick, he's amazing <33 =)

someone called my cell during math class. it was on silent though, so i just covered the light. lol it was restricted, otherwise i would be pissed off at whoever called me. pshhh.

i've had tests in each class today. fun? nah. but the classes are going by fast. so thats good.

mhmm. can't wait to get out of school.

i told nick to call me last night, but unfortunately i fell asleep at like 9:00. oops.
i woke up and i was like "damn i fell asleep." he left me a cute voice mail, and i smiled when i heard it. =)

oh yeah. i'm happy for cj. enough said.

i love my boyfriend =)

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 03:33:19 GMT

mhm, i am in love with nick boudin.
he is pretty much the most amazing boyfriend ever.
yup, i speak true facts.

2 weeks ♥

it's friday =)

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 14:31:26 GMT

todays friday.
so i'm pretty much happy.
besides the fact that nick is working. which sucks.

pizza for lunch. nicceee. i am in the mood for it. i may get poptarts also. beacuse i'm hungry.

adam cut his hair. it looks cute. i like it.

it's hot in this class. i'm wearing my 'heavy metal' shirt from busche gardens. every time i wear this shirt everyone has a comment on me listening to heavy metal, when the saying is refering to rollercoasters. pshh dumbass. i like to wear little boys shirts.

hah i have a spiderman shirt i stole from some little kid when i was camping. that shirt is mad small but i love it. [pointless.]

show tonight @ the boys and girls club. mourning glory & gone by daylight. the show isnt going to be good, but i have nothing better to do, so i may go. who knows. you should make plans with me. it's friday & i have none whatsoever. wtf is wrong with me. ahem loserrr.

the kid next to me is looking at drug affences, like when you get caught with them what happens. i think he is quite facintated with drugs. last week he was looking up pictures of pot leaves. interesting? mmm not really.

last night at the gym was rather interesting & eventfull. some fat ass was running on the tredmill & fell on her stomache and kind of flew off. hahah !! lol and some retarded kid was like doing reps on some machine and hes like "oneeeeee twoooooo freeeeeee YAYYYYYY" i was like WTF?! lmao i was laughing & i told mariah but she didnt find it funny. oh ! and the best part of my night... we went outside and some asshole hit my dads car and left a few scratches, and my dads like "WHAT THE FUCK!!!!*angry face*" and he keys the guys car!! haha and then we left & listened to the warriors in the car. fun ? mmhmm.

this entry was pretty much pointless. but i finished all of my work and i have nothing better to do than update my livejournal, so yepp. that is what i am doing!! ..duhh.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 14:31:59 GMT

so yeah, i'm in computer class. i don't want to be here. i want to be home, sleeping in my bed. gahh. =( this whole week overall sucked and its only thursday. i need something to do. i never have any plans. i think i am hanging out with courtney today, but if not then you really need to make plans with me before [5:00 or after 6:00 is good], or else i think i may go insane. nick is working up untill saturday. & who knows maybe sunday too. i miss him so much, &i need to see him soon. i havnt seen him since sunday night. =( i had cereal & coffee this morning. so i'm not really starving like i usually am. but i wouldnt mind some french fries right now. this week has been stressfull. courtney was crying this morning.. i don't like when my close friends cry; i pretty much love courtney a lot.
plans for this weekend: friday: going to the movies possibly. but who knows because molly is grounded & that sucks. make plans to chill.
saturday: going to the gym & then going to aarons birthday party [i think] & six flags at night, meeting jess there & keenan too i think. busy busy busy busy. if you wanna hang out then you should prob meet me at six flags, right? mhmm.
sunday: hanging out with nick. i hope. & if not then yeah, i'm free. so make plans. hang out with me, please?

okay thats all for now.
my life is boring.
i've bored you enough.

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 19:36:28 GMT

my good mood ended quickly.
once i got home, which pretty much makes sence. my house drives me insane. escpecially the fact that my mom is here. i hate my mom. i hate how she complains to me how i disrespect her when
she is constantly disrespecting me.

ughh. i miss nick so incredibly much.
you don't care. i don't want you to care.
i don't need your pity.